"My Mother..crucified"
Saint Gemma is taught how Mary suffered in union with Jesus.
This article is taken from the Italian book "La Povera Gemma" written by Padre Enrico Zoffoli C.P. and published in 1957. The book is a 1014 page hagiography on the life of St Gemma. The webmaster would like to extend a heartfelt thank you to Mrs. Rita Dunn for translating it into English for this website. May God bless her for her efforts.
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The spiritual life of Gemma is inseparable from the meditation on the Motherhood of the Blessed Virgin, even more so then in many other souls. It could not be otherwise... the contrary, in fact, would be surprising. This [devotion to the Motherhood] stems from the spontaneous, warm, child-like temperament of a very young girl who became an orphan, stricken by grief that would prompt her to run through the steep road that brings one to the summit of Calvary.
We hear again and again her voice more eloquent than any other soul in transmitting the tone of her relationship with her "Mom"; and the "reply" from Who destined Gemma to the same kind of martyrdom.
'Oh, if at least the Mom of Jesus would love me......if only I could become worthy of being called 'daughter'! I tell you, how many times this good Mom overlooked all my sins! How many times She was to me a loving Mother! Will She still be so when Jesus goes away? Is it true?....If Jesus leaves, I want my Mom. If Jesus does not want me and I have to live without Jesus, I want to be heard at least by Her;...I will not be able to be without my Mom. Oh, my Mother! I love you so..."169.
In this way she expressed her sentiments to Fr. Germano in times of trial. Gemma was right to use such familiarity of speech because of her long experience with the Virgin since her tender age:
"Here I am in the month of May! I think...of the many blessings that my Mom gave me in this first years of my life, and I am so ashamed...because I have not looked at that heart and that hand that would bring me so much kindness...yes, my dear dad ( Fr. Germano) -how many times in front of an image of my Mom I have confided in Her all the anxieties of my heart! And how many times my Mom comforted me! In all my afflictions I remember that I do not have my mom on earth but I do have a compassionate One in Heaven..." 170.
In fact the Madonna appears to her, caresses her, kisses her and reprimands her, She wants a saint at all costs.
She is also her only refuge: "You must make peace between Jesus and me " - exclaims Gemma during an ecstasy in which she was afraid to have lost the Divine Son - "Oh Mom, do not abandon me!.. Who will help me?...Do not go away.."
In another circumstance Gemma's spirit exults :"Oh dear dad (Fr. Germano) you should see how beautiful is that Mother!...Today there is a great feast for Her in Heaven. Jesus gives great glory to His and my Mom. See dear dad....She is so beautiful that words can not tell! The Eternal Father gave Her a crown made of His Holy Love..."
"How beautiful is Communion made with the Heavenly Mother! Dear dad, do you know what flight my heart feels in that precious moment? In only these words : ‘Oh my Mom, how happy I am in calling you so! My heart jumps as when I
remember Jesus’.
And She replied to me : ‘You are happy in calling me Mom and I exult in calling you daughter!’.
And She replied to me : ‘You are happy in calling me Mom and I exult in calling you daughter!’.
One day, Gemma repeated at least 3 times these words- “....Those are moments in which I feel like I am in Heaven.”
“Let us reflect well dear dad on the Feast of the Heavenly Mother. Is it not the most beautiful day of the year? The soul on that day is consoled with serene peace and forgets the storms of this world.. Yes , Yes I have felt many times that the Feast of the Heavenly Mother is always for me a highest day of peace; a day of greater love and santification for all.."
So moving is the ecstasy of May 24th 1900 in which Gemma calls her "Mom" 23 times. On August 25th of the same year she repeats this beautiful name wholeheartedly 30 times....
“Let us reflect well dear dad on the Feast of the Heavenly Mother. Is it not the most beautiful day of the year? The soul on that day is consoled with serene peace and forgets the storms of this world.. Yes , Yes I have felt many times that the Feast of the Heavenly Mother is always for me a highest day of peace; a day of greater love and santification for all.."
So moving is the ecstasy of May 24th 1900 in which Gemma calls her "Mom" 23 times. On August 25th of the same year she repeats this beautiful name wholeheartedly 30 times....
During the long and happy ecstasy of May 27th she recommends herself and all the sinners to the Virgin and she prays with singular gratitude for all her benefactors...
In the ecstasy of July 4th 1902, we have a sublime prayer that springs from her sensible soul: "...Adored Jesus Incarnate Word! ....oh Mom... oh Mom! Oh, if you are my merciful Mother, then do not abandon this daughter that loves You so! Without you, who will listen to my prayers? Who will hear my vows? Without You I am like a sinner...like a beggar without help. My Mom, why would You leave me? Bring me to Heaven. Oh my Mom, you are a pure flower, a bloom from a white lily; Queen of Heaven, You who steal the most noble part of every creature like you did to me.... You have taken my heart! Return it to me now that under your embrace nothing is earthly, but all becomes heavenly. Return my heart to me….Oh Mom, you do not want to because you are jealous if I should give it to my Love. Then give it Yourself to my Jesus. Jesus loves me so much because my every breath is His, my every desire is His, and my every affection is His. Before you leave Mom bring me to Heaven!." 177
However the heart of Gemma is at the foot of the Cross as she contemplates her Sorrowful Mother. Her Mother appears to her sorrowful and in tears, so the saint becomes conscious of her defects, and proclaims all her love. She learns this from Saint Gabriele who teaches her to compassionate the Blessed Mother [Saint Gabriel Possenti C.P. of our Lady of Sorrows –editor]: "She was the most afflicted of all women and She is comforted if a soul shows Her compassion. She has so many graces and She does not know to who She can give them. She finds no soul that asks Her, not a heart that begs Her".
Between the months of June and July of the same year 1900, the Virgin exhorts Gemma to go to Fr. Germano and tell him: "You are so afraid that it may not be the will of God that you become a Passionist... tell him in my name to appease the will of my Son; to put you immediately in the convent. Tell him also that in the month consecrated to Me, which is the month of September, I want to make a victim of you for my Son, and offer you to Jesus; but I want you in the convent". 180
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For the Feast of the Holy Rosary of the same year, Gemma asks the Madonna another gift:
"a big cross", "very thick" to follow with the one of "her crucified Jesus". The following splendid meditation was suggested by the Mystery of the Incarnation.
"This morning, after Holy Communion, I thought: ‘Oh, what a great sorrow must have been for the Madonna after the birth of Jesus when She thought that they were to crucify Him! What a heart ache! How many sighs, how many times She must have cried! However, She never complained. Poor Mother! Then when She saw Him really crucified, that poor Mom was pierced by many arrows. I well know that when a person hurts the son in the presence of a mom or dad, the pain hurts the son and the parents. Therefore my Mom was crucified together with Jesus. And, She never complained..."
In her talks during some ecstasies she participates even more deeply in the sadness of the Virgin:
"Tell me Mom, what did you do when you saw Jesus crowned? What did You do, what did Your heart feel?....Ah! I understand it is a sorrow so great... what a difference between Your heart and mine!...It was a great sorrow...What will I do today here?..Jesus died, and You, my Mom, are crying. What will I do? To whom will I talk, who is with me?...I am not worthy, my Mom, that You remain with me...Why are you crying? What causes Your cry? If You cry because they offend Jesus, oh, my Mom, be consoled!.. I will do all I can so that He will not be anymore offended. I will do all I can so that they will leave Him be…..do not worry my Mother, I will sacrifice everything: words, thoughts, sacrifices, so that He will be less offended...Oh, wicked sinners stop crucifying Jesus, because at the same time you pierce His Mother."
In the ecstasy of July 4th 1902, we have a sublime prayer that springs from her sensible soul: "...Adored Jesus Incarnate Word! ....oh Mom... oh Mom! Oh, if you are my merciful Mother, then do not abandon this daughter that loves You so! Without you, who will listen to my prayers? Who will hear my vows? Without You I am like a sinner...like a beggar without help. My Mom, why would You leave me? Bring me to Heaven. Oh my Mom, you are a pure flower, a bloom from a white lily; Queen of Heaven, You who steal the most noble part of every creature like you did to me.... You have taken my heart! Return it to me now that under your embrace nothing is earthly, but all becomes heavenly. Return my heart to me….Oh Mom, you do not want to because you are jealous if I should give it to my Love. Then give it Yourself to my Jesus. Jesus loves me so much because my every breath is His, my every desire is His, and my every affection is His. Before you leave Mom bring me to Heaven!." 177
However the heart of Gemma is at the foot of the Cross as she contemplates her Sorrowful Mother. Her Mother appears to her sorrowful and in tears, so the saint becomes conscious of her defects, and proclaims all her love. She learns this from Saint Gabriele who teaches her to compassionate the Blessed Mother [Saint Gabriel Possenti C.P. of our Lady of Sorrows –editor]: "She was the most afflicted of all women and She is comforted if a soul shows Her compassion. She has so many graces and She does not know to who She can give them. She finds no soul that asks Her, not a heart that begs Her".
Between the months of June and July of the same year 1900, the Virgin exhorts Gemma to go to Fr. Germano and tell him: "You are so afraid that it may not be the will of God that you become a Passionist... tell him in my name to appease the will of my Son; to put you immediately in the convent. Tell him also that in the month consecrated to Me, which is the month of September, I want to make a victim of you for my Son, and offer you to Jesus; but I want you in the convent". 180
P. 614
For the Feast of the Holy Rosary of the same year, Gemma asks the Madonna another gift:
"a big cross", "very thick" to follow with the one of "her crucified Jesus". The following splendid meditation was suggested by the Mystery of the Incarnation.
"This morning, after Holy Communion, I thought: ‘Oh, what a great sorrow must have been for the Madonna after the birth of Jesus when She thought that they were to crucify Him! What a heart ache! How many sighs, how many times She must have cried! However, She never complained. Poor Mother! Then when She saw Him really crucified, that poor Mom was pierced by many arrows. I well know that when a person hurts the son in the presence of a mom or dad, the pain hurts the son and the parents. Therefore my Mom was crucified together with Jesus. And, She never complained..."
In her talks during some ecstasies she participates even more deeply in the sadness of the Virgin:
"Tell me Mom, what did you do when you saw Jesus crowned? What did You do, what did Your heart feel?....Ah! I understand it is a sorrow so great... what a difference between Your heart and mine!...It was a great sorrow...What will I do today here?..Jesus died, and You, my Mom, are crying. What will I do? To whom will I talk, who is with me?...I am not worthy, my Mom, that You remain with me...Why are you crying? What causes Your cry? If You cry because they offend Jesus, oh, my Mom, be consoled!.. I will do all I can so that He will not be anymore offended. I will do all I can so that they will leave Him be…..do not worry my Mother, I will sacrifice everything: words, thoughts, sacrifices, so that He will be less offended...Oh, wicked sinners stop crucifying Jesus, because at the same time you pierce His Mother."
On April 7th 1900 she is again with Our Lady of Sorrows-
"Oh, my Mom, where are you? Again at the foot of the Cross of Jesus? ... What a sight You saw Mom when Jesus died!...When You placed Him in the tomb! And you could not be with Him anymore? How is it possible that You suffered so much because of me? How did You do it? Poor Jesus!.. Tell me how did You stand seeing Jesus being crucified to the Cross? My Mom… let me know the cross…. Who will understand You, oh Mother? I see that You continue to look at those wounds. How could I not have compassion on You? If I could.... Oh how great was Your pain!....You can not recognize Jesus. What did You do?.. .Oh God... Jesus is dead and Mom You are crying. Am I the only one that is so insensitive?.....I do not see anymore one sacrifice: I see two: one for Jesus and one for Mary! Oh Mother, if one could see You with Jesus, one would not be able to say who will be the first one to die: You or Jesus!"
Fifteen days later the saint is again enraptured in another sorrowful ecstasy in front of the Virgin:
"I am full of compassion for You, oh my Mom, on seeing You every Saturday standing by the Cross! But the greatest pain is that I can not give You any comfort.. How sorrowful You are, oh my Mother! If I could comfort You with my little sacrifices, then please accept them Mom, and tell Jesus to hide them in His heart... When You are suffering oh Mom, who is the main cause of your pain? Is it I? Did I build the sword? Then with that same sword wound me also... remove, remove Jesus!... Remove Jesus (from the cross) otherwise my Mom will die!...
I do not know which one will be the first one to die. It is such a great sorrow , it is a spasm. Oh I do not see only one Victim any more but two. Why am I the only one so insensible? My Mom! Oh, how are you so able to embrace the Cross for all those souls that want to live without the cross? Oh my Mom! Oh my Jesus! Jesus, He pushes me to love the Cross; oh my Mom, but this cross... No, I will not refuse it, because if I refuse the Cross I refuse Jesus. Yes, I want to love it always. Is it
Gem of Christ, most holy virgin, fill our hearts with the love of God which is most perfectly manifested in the heart of our Lady of Sorrows.
God bless all
"Oh, my Mom, where are you? Again at the foot of the Cross of Jesus? ... What a sight You saw Mom when Jesus died!...When You placed Him in the tomb! And you could not be with Him anymore? How is it possible that You suffered so much because of me? How did You do it? Poor Jesus!.. Tell me how did You stand seeing Jesus being crucified to the Cross? My Mom… let me know the cross…. Who will understand You, oh Mother? I see that You continue to look at those wounds. How could I not have compassion on You? If I could.... Oh how great was Your pain!....You can not recognize Jesus. What did You do?.. .Oh God... Jesus is dead and Mom You are crying. Am I the only one that is so insensitive?.....I do not see anymore one sacrifice: I see two: one for Jesus and one for Mary! Oh Mother, if one could see You with Jesus, one would not be able to say who will be the first one to die: You or Jesus!"
Fifteen days later the saint is again enraptured in another sorrowful ecstasy in front of the Virgin:
"I am full of compassion for You, oh my Mom, on seeing You every Saturday standing by the Cross! But the greatest pain is that I can not give You any comfort.. How sorrowful You are, oh my Mother! If I could comfort You with my little sacrifices, then please accept them Mom, and tell Jesus to hide them in His heart... When You are suffering oh Mom, who is the main cause of your pain? Is it I? Did I build the sword? Then with that same sword wound me also... remove, remove Jesus!... Remove Jesus (from the cross) otherwise my Mom will die!...
I do not know which one will be the first one to die. It is such a great sorrow , it is a spasm. Oh I do not see only one Victim any more but two. Why am I the only one so insensible? My Mom! Oh, how are you so able to embrace the Cross for all those souls that want to live without the cross? Oh my Mom! Oh my Jesus! Jesus, He pushes me to love the Cross; oh my Mom, but this cross... No, I will not refuse it, because if I refuse the Cross I refuse Jesus. Yes, I want to love it always. Is it
Gem of Christ, most holy virgin, fill our hearts with the love of God which is most perfectly manifested in the heart of our Lady of Sorrows.
God bless all
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