Trust

Trusting somebody is the hardest thing you can do with your life. You are afraid that person may break your heart or hurt you. Most people don't trust very well at all. I don't trust well, I don't trust that somebody will hurt me, dump me, use me, or worse. The fear of letting somebody see you for who you are and your inner heart. If you can't trust Jesus then you really don't believe in him. I learned to trust Jesus a long time ago and it was very hard to do, but when I finally did it was amazing. I felt better and more at peace. I knew I didn't have control of this situation and only Jesus did. He is the one who can save us, rescue us and hold us.

Remember the bible verse about Peter seeing Jesus walking on water and Jesus asking him to join him and Peter couldn't trust Jesus.

Here is a short story about Peter and Jesus walking on water..

The disciples had a long tiring day and Jesus sent them out in the boat to go over to another town. It was a dark stormy night and the wind was tossing the waves around. In the middle of the night, they thought they were seeing a ghost when Jesus came to them walking on the sea! Jesus saw they were scared and told them not to be afraid. When they were the most afraid, he told them to cheer up, he was with them! God has to take the storm out of us before He can take us out of the storms of life. Peter must have wondered if it really was Jesus or just their imagination. He asked Jesus to tell him to come out on the water with him if this was really happening. Jesus didn't say, "I'm sorry, Peter, but water-walking is for Messiahs only." No, he said one simple word: Come. God calls us to do impossible things by faith. It must have taken a lot of trust by Peter to take that first step out of the boat in the middle of the wind and waves. When he did, Peter walked on water! The Bible says,

And when Peter was come down out of the ship, he walked on the water, to go to Jesus. But when he saw the wind boisterous, he was afraid; and beginning to sink, he cried, saying, Lord, save me. - Matthew 14:29,30

Peter was doing fine until he took his eyes off Jesus. As long as he had faith, he did impossible things to do without God's help. He kept his eyes on Jesus and walked on water. When he looked around at the world, he started believing that the storm was going to defeat him. He lost faith. He took his eyes off Jesus, and he began to sink. If we forget that Jesus is right there to help us, we can let the storms of life cause us to sink. If we keep our eyes on Jesus, we can do mighty things for God by faith.

Then Peter uttered what is probably the shortest prayer in the Bible: Lord, save me. Everyone needs to say that prayer. We ALL need Jesus to save us. He is our only hope. Jesus told Peter he should not have doubted. When they got back in the ship, everyone on board came and worshipped Jesus, saying, Of a truth thou art the Son of God. Whenever we do something with God's help we need to remember to give Him the glory for it.

Life gets really scary sometimes. And we can get ourselves into all kinds of strange circumstances. Our faith can become all mixed up, and can even be taken away, if we flirt too much with sin and unbelief.

Even when we commit to obeying God, to following the Lord, we sometimes try to do so on our own terms, in our own strength, and according to our own rules and ideas. But we soon learn that God will not jump through our hoops. He is God. He is in control. We are not.

Fortunately, the Lord marks the path for us, in ways that even fools can eventually recognize the signs and get the message. I'm as big a fool as has ever lived, but even I was finally able to read the writing on the walls along the pathway of my life.

The greatest message that God has ever given to human beings is this one: TRUST JESUS. It's good for the saving of a soul, and for the mending of a life gone wrong. And it's good for everything else that any of us will ever truly need, both now and for always.

My struggles

Yesterday I had a struggle of my vocation to Catholic life and Catholic Nun. My depression started kicking back in and I started getting worried and questioning why am I changing beliefs, churches and leaving my family. Why do I want to seperate myself and be different??

I really sat and pondered on this last night with God. I was asking him why this? why did I have to have so much trials and headache in my life? why must it be so hard for me and so easy for other people??

I was getting really depressed and upset over it. I finally told myself " I find actual peace in becoming catholic and discerning to become a sister" God has given me my calling to this lifestyle and he knows whats best for me and where i'm suppose to be. I shouldn't question it or ask for answers. I should be a willing servant of the lord and serve him with all my heart no matter how hard it is.

God has given me another trial to fight and deal with it. I know that I can overcome it with his help, my guardian angel and Mother Mary guiding me.

I want to overcome this and be able to wear all white when receiving my first communion and be able to take my vows as a bride of christ...

Please pray for me and I will pray for you all :) God bless!

You know when you are called to be a Nun.

1. You wake up praying any part of the Divine Office...
2. You dream more than three times a week about being in the convent...
3. Your friends all share their wedding details with you, and all you can think about is that if you were to get married, you would want Exposition and Holy Hour of Adoration right after the ceremony (complete with Benediction and plenty of incense...) no rush to go to the honeymoon....
4. you have all these religious community websites bookmarked in your "favorites" on your web browser...
5. you have more friends in the convent than you have out in the world...
6. when every thought you have of being married leads you to think of you being clothed in the habit and veil
7. when all your friends are candidates, aspirants, or Sisters in religious orders.
8. when the idea won't leave you alone, and you know deep down that you have to at least try or you'll regret it the rest of your life.
9. when some of your best inside jokes are shared only by you and two of your favorite Dominican sisters...
10. when you would rather go to the Catholic store to buy saint medals than go to the mall to buy new clothes
11. when you don't write your crush's name in you notebook, but instead, write your future religious sister name....
12. when you try constantly to picture yourself with a veil...
13. when Jesus is the only one who will ever understand the horrible day you've had....
14. when you hear a love song, you think about Jesus....
15. when your idea of a dinner date is Mass.....
16. You find yourself (sometime without realizing it) spending a quiet hour at work in contemplative prayer/meditating on scripture.
17. when you just long for HIM in Holy Communion - all day long!!!!!!!
18. when you don´t want to close your LOTH.
19. when the only websites you go to besides your e-mail and phatmass are religious sisters' websites.
20. Have many books about the life of the Saints
21. Have many photos of the sisters on your notebook/computer
22. Can't stop dreaming about the convent life
23. Heartbouncing when you saw photos from sisters (I want it too!!)
24. Talk with Him a lot
25. Love Him more than other
26. Have DVDs about religious life, these are your favoriete movies ever! (Example: Into great silence, A man who becames a pope: Pope John II, Saint Thèrése, Mission, Father Damian, Brother Sun and Sister Moon, Mother Teresa of Calcutta and more...)
27. See all big houses and you will thinking: this house will maybe for the sisters and their/our work (especially the carmeldcj)
28. When the sisters ask when you will entered, especially the older sisters
29. When the sisters will ask for your help
30. When some friends says: you don't say it, but you want to enter to an convent. We can see in your eyes.
31. When one day you wake up and have a sudden urge to kiss the crucifix on your wall and say "I will take up my cross and follow you". Then you continue to act on that urge every single morning.
32. When you're upset saying a Hail Mary cheers you up more than your family or friends.
33. Mass during the petitions when they say "For an increase for vocations to the priesthood and religious life," and you feel guilty and/or cannot stop smiling.
34. When you see a religious, you turn the other direction.
35. When you see a religious, you stalk them
36. You cannot get the idea of being a religious out of your head.
37. You are constantly thinking about what your religious name might be.
38. You have visited religious orders without your parents' knowledge.
39. You are always looking at different orders on the internet.
40. People tell you you would make a good nun.
41. People tell you they will go to your final profession.
42. You've been told that you would look good in a veil.
43. You hide brochures about different communities under your bed.
44. You play dress-up nun and use a pillow case/skirt for your veil.
45. You randomly wake up early in the morning and cannot explain it.
46. You daydream about Jesus (He is so distracting sometimes! lol)
47. You get excited about fasting, etc. (well, this isn't just for those discerning religious life).
48. You schedule things around praying the Divine Office.
49. You are intensely attracted to certain colors that strangely correspond to the exact color a certain order wears...
50. You stalk the saint founders of certain orders
51. The saint-founders of certain orders stalk you.
52. You know the schedule of your favorite community by heart and correspond the time you say the Office with when they do.
53. You get excited about the thought of SPIRITUAL children.
54. You're excited about getting to give everything away--yay religious poverty!
55. You're excit
56. ed about even wearing a dorky postulant outfit!
57. When random strangers walk up and ask you "Are you going to be a Sister?" for reasons you just can't seem to figure out.
58. When you try to justify chores by attributing them to a certain "vow of obedience"
59. When you spend your free time drawing pictures/writing icons of the saints
    
60. When you find more comfort in sharing things with Jesus, Mary, and the saints instead of with friends
61. When Jesus in the Blessed Sacrament is the only thing that makes you happy or gives you peace. When you just want to spend your life at the feet of Jesus in the tabernacle...
62. You start registering at Catholic forums with your preferred religious name. Just incase...
63. Whenever you pray the Rosary with a group, and close your eyes, you imagine that you're a nun.
64. ...someone asks you if you are in a relationship OR if you are dating someone???
65. and you immediately think, "Yes, with Jesus.." but you are not quite sure how to put it into words...
66. . you cry at the idea of wearing a wedding gown at your future wedding with Christ :-)
67. you keep getting called "sister" even in lay clothes
68. you are constantly asked "are you a sister?"
69. at school or at home or at work you keep thinking about consecrated life
70. ...being curious about nuns, you're watching a video on YouTube and a nun talks about asking Mary, so you do that before Mass. During mass, you visualize yourself in a habit, and after Mass, an elderly parishioner (who's part of a parish ministry - altar society) tells you "You look like a nun! You should be a nun!"! And you feel all giddy inside!
71. You long for intimate moments with HIM, and nothing anybody else says or does gets to you. All you can think about is HIM. Your true Bridegroom!
72. ..at random places you think about a scenario where you could be martyred like your saint heroes.
73. at random places you think about what a saint would be doing right there and then.
74. .at random places you wish you could be somewhere else praying.
75. ..you're reading threads on this forum about convents, realize it's 7:30am, and you really have to get ready for work.
76. ...You jot down any sins you just committed in a notebook (or on the computer when you get a chance).
77. You wish the confessional was open 24/7.

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Then Moses said to the LORD,"Please, Lord, I have never been eloquent, neither recently nor in time past, nor since You have spoken to Your servant; for I am slow of speech and slow of tongue."The LORD said to him, "Who has made man's mouth? Or who makes him mute or deaf, or seeing or blind? Is it not I, the LORD?"Now then go, and I, even I, will be with your mouth, and teach you what you are to say." (Exodus 4:10-12)

This verse has always spoke to me as a child. I was born with severe learning disabilities and I couldn't speak well. I felt like God gave me this flaw to humble my spirit to him and have me depend on him more. I seek him comfort in Our Lord when he test me with my disabilities. Some days I wish the Lord would take this cross that I bear from me and give it to myself, but then other days I am glad he came me my speech issues because it humbles me to him.

Some days I feel like I can't lead people to Christ with my lack of speech and unable to speech well. If you all can't tell in my blog. I have horrible grammar from my disabilities so I apologize for my bad grammar.

What does your heart long for?

My heart longs for to be accepted for my uniqueness and love for Christ. I long to be one with God. I want to have complete intimacy with Jesus Christ on my journey to the church. I long for complete love and acceptance. I want peace of mind and total submission to the Lord.

Everybody's heart longs for something special in their heart. Some people long for a husband,kids, a job and a house of there own. A catholic woman with a vocation longs for complete love with Jesus Christ. She wants to be able to serve him all day long and adore him with all her heart.

Most people don't follow their heart to where they belong. They put it off and just give up on there dreams.

My advice to whatever vocation God has called you to have, to follow your heart to where you belong and don't ever do anything you will regret.

When you have found that inner peace and happiness, you will feel relaxed and this inner knowing of being at peace.

Follow your heart!

Do not be afraid, for I have redeemed you.I have called you by name, you are mine. (Isaiah 43:1)

Beloved by Tenth Avenue North song

Beloved by Tenth Avenue North


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Love of my life
Look deep in my eyes
There you will find what you need
Give me your life
Lust and the lies
The past you're afraid I might see
You've been running away from me

You're my beloved
Lover I'm yours
Death shall not part us
It's you I died for
For better or worse
Forever we'll be
Our Love it unites us
It binds you to me
It's a mystery

Love of my life
Look deep in my eyes
There you will find what you need
I'am the giver of life
I'll clothe you in whine
My immaculate bride you will be
Oh come running home to me

You're my beloved
Lover I'm yours
Death shall not part us
It's you I died for
For better or worse
Forever we'll be
Our Love it unites us
It binds you to me

Well you've been a mistress, my wife
Chasing lovers it won't satisfy
Won't you let me make you my bride
You will drink of my lips
And you'll taste new life

Cause you're my beloved
Lover I'm yours
Death shall not part us
It's you I died for
For better or worse
Forever we'll be
Our Love it unites us
& it binds you to me

You're my beloved
Forever we'll be
Our love it unites us
And it binds you to me
It's a mystery
It's a mystery

How to fall in love with Jesus Christ

1. Guard your tongue
2. Praise God everyday minute of the day
3. Get his word from your mind to your spirit
4. Don't try to believe for more than you have faith to believe.

Make it our primary goal to know Christ

Practice listening to him

Seek his will first and always

Confess your sins,get cleansed in the blood of Jesus

Fall in love with Jesus

Falling in love with anybody can be scaring. Just know Jesus will never break your heart, hurt you,use you or forget about you. He is always there wanting to hold you,listen to you, and be your everything.

My advice to everybody is to start dating Jesus and fall in love with him like I have done :)