Friday, May 21, 2010


Then Moses said to the LORD,"Please, Lord, I have never been eloquent, neither recently nor in time past, nor since You have spoken to Your servant; for I am slow of speech and slow of tongue."The LORD said to him, "Who has made man's mouth? Or who makes him mute or deaf, or seeing or blind? Is it not I, the LORD?"Now then go, and I, even I, will be with your mouth, and teach you what you are to say." (Exodus 4:10-12)

This verse has always spoke to me as a child. I was born with severe learning disabilities and I couldn't speak well. I felt like God gave me this flaw to humble my spirit to him and have me depend on him more. I seek him comfort in Our Lord when he test me with my disabilities. Some days I wish the Lord would take this cross that I bear from me and give it to myself, but then other days I am glad he came me my speech issues because it humbles me to him.

Some days I feel like I can't lead people to Christ with my lack of speech and unable to speech well. If you all can't tell in my blog. I have horrible grammar from my disabilities so I apologize for my bad grammar.


What does your heart long for?


My heart longs for to be accepted for my uniqueness and love for Christ. I long to be one with God. I want to have complete intimacy with Jesus Christ on my journey to the church. I long for complete love and acceptance. I want peace of mind and total submission to the Lord.

Everybody's heart longs for something special in their heart. Some people long for a husband,kids, a job and a house of there own. A catholic woman with a vocation longs for complete love with Jesus Christ. She wants to be able to serve him all day long and adore him with all her heart.
Most people don't follow their heart to where they belong. They put it off and just give up on there dreams.
My advice to whatever vocation God has called you to have, to follow your heart to where you belong and don't ever do anything you will regret.
When you have found that inner peace and happiness, you will feel relaxed and this inner knowing of being at peace.

Follow your heart!

Do not be afraid, for I have redeemed you.I have called you by name, you are mine. (Isaiah 43:1)

Thursday, May 20, 2010

Beloved by Tenth Avenue North song

Beloved by Tenth Avenue North


http://www.youtube.c...h?v=Onz7K0djcRA




Love of my life
Look deep in my eyes
There you will find what you need
Give me your life
Lust and the lies
The past you're afraid I might see
You've been running away from me

You're my beloved
Lover I'm yours
Death shall not part us
It's you I died for
For better or worse
Forever we'll be
Our Love it unites us
It binds you to me
It's a mystery

Love of my life
Look deep in my eyes
There you will find what you need
I'am the giver of life
I'll clothe you in whine
My immaculate bride you will be
Oh come running home to me

You're my beloved
Lover I'm yours
Death shall not part us
It's you I died for
For better or worse
Forever we'll be
Our Love it unites us
It binds you to me

Well you've been a mistress, my wife
Chasing lovers it won't satisfy
Won't you let me make you my bride
You will drink of my lips
And you'll taste new life

Cause you're my beloved
Lover I'm yours
Death shall not part us
It's you I died for
For better or worse
Forever we'll be
Our Love it unites us
& it binds you to me

You're my beloved
Forever we'll be
Our love it unites us
And it binds you to me
It's a mystery
It's a mystery

How to fall in love with Jesus Christ



  1. Guard your tongue
  2. Praise God everyday minute of the day
  3. Get his word from your mind to your spirit
  4. Don't try to believe for more than you have faith to believe.
Make it our primary goal to know Christ
Practice listening to him
Seek his will first and always
Confess your sins,get cleansed in the blood of Jesus
Fall in love with Jesus

Falling in love with anybody can be scaring. Just know Jesus will never break your heart, hurt you,use you or forget about you. He is always there wanting to hold you,listen to you, and be your everything.
My advice to everybody is to start dating Jesus and fall in love with him like I have done :)


Pros and Cons for Spiritual Life 4-26-10


Dear God,
I don't know what to do or what to from here. I need your help and guidance to help me learn your purpose for me. I feel so called to serve you in the Sisterhood and religious life. I want to spend my days praying to you, listening to you,talking to you, and serving you with my purpose. Lead me Oh God, to where I need to go, follow you, and serving you. I love you God and trust you with all my heart. You are my life, love of my life, and my lover. I'm thirsting for intimacy with you and embrace you and everything about you. I want to connect with you and be with you. I'm so in love with you Lord.

Oh Lord. I feel so scared and alone. I'm nervous about telling my family about my calling to religious life. They will probably disown me,be angry, and not approve. They don't understand my love for you and my commitment to you with "divine intimacy". I started dressing more modestly for you and be beautiful ladylike for you. I'm been wearing skirts 4 days now. Its a really big change for me and so hopefully i'm pleasing you. If the good lord comes to my house he will be smiling at me for showing my femininity.
Amen Love you Daddy!

Pros:
  • Being closer to God
  • Fulfilling my spiritual purpose
  • being accepted
  • dedicating my life to something big
  • showing God's love to his people

  • Cons:
  • Leaving my horse
  • leaving my family and friends
  • babies
  • marriage
  • my own house

I saw God today.


Yesterday I saw God at work and he was talking to me through a old lady. I was caring for a old lady and she just started talking about God's love, being in his house, and asking me to pray with her.I was feeling extremely lonely and stressed out. I was it was God's way of telling me " I am his beloved and future bride to be". God told me in my heart " everything will be ok and you are my beloved, trust me, and believe in me". You are not alone in this world, when you feel weak rely on my strength,love,guidance and understanding for you.
I don't know where my journey will take me with my discernment to God and the Church. I may be called to the catholic church and to be a catholic nun. I emailed a priest last night. I was so nervous and scared to do something out of my comfort zone, but I trusted my gutt and heart just did it.I'm ready to be able to discern openly with my family and friends about my vocation. I want to be able to go to confession,Mass,Holy Eucharist Communion, and prayers with the rosary. I just hope everything works out for the best and trust my heart. I love the feeling when God whispers to me and talks to me like a bride to be and like a daughter. I hope in ten years I will have found my place in the world. I could be a bride of christ doing God's work in either a hospital or nursing home, or I could be married,working as a nurse and having kids. I just know whatever plan God has for me. I know he knows better than I do. I just want to crawl into his lap and have him hold me!

St Therese Of Jesus

SAINT THERESE OF JESUS-LETTER 103: A HERMINIA VALDÉS OSSA.

We live only for Jesus. And as the angels in heaven sing your praises constantly, the Carmelite's secondary here on earth, either near the tabernacle where God is captive, Love, and in the depths of his soul in heaven, where faith tells God dwells. Our vocation is the love object, which is the greatest thing that has the heart of man. That love lies in his soul since the day they put Jesus in it the seed of vocation. It is a bonfire where the soul is consumed and merges with God. That fire will not leave anything in their path. All it disappear, even the creatures, to go to join the infinite fire of love which is God. So seeking solitude that nothing prevents him from union with the One through whom all the stops. A soul-even when you really love is that in human affections-not want to be but with the beloved, look always express what is going on in the hearts and narrower and narrower. That is why we, loving Jesus with all our soul, we just want to contemplate and speak to him alone to change their ideas and feelings for our miserable divine.
What else is richer for the soul who loves life pass before the tabernacle. He, imprisoned for his love, and she. Nothing separates them. No worries. Only must love and miss the creature in its infinite Good. He opens his heart, and makes living there forgotten everything in the world, because it reveals its infinite charm, in the light of which all else is vanity. The close and attached to it. And the soul, lost and crazy with all the tenderness of a God, despises the creatures, and just want to live alone with Love Oh dear sister, blessed us who have been selected to be the favorite wife of Jesus, without which the can not happen, because in them a true love, because the brown makes the most complete gift of all. She devoted her intelligence neglecting the humanities, his memory, forgetting everything in the world, your family, etc. Deposes her will completely, because she has no authority over anyone, and even to take a pin has to ask permission. His heart was so devoted entirely desposeyéndose all complete by poverty and refusing the slightest comfort. Finally, his body is offered in sacrifice, subject to the severest penances. What is it? Nothing, nothing and still buried in the silence inside the adorable Heart of your God. There, as the Madeleine, heard of Jesus who has chosen the better part of loving all that is needed. Nobody out there. She understands that at the touch of Jesus is deified, for this is to become immersed in Him, and, as it engulfed in Jesus, we discover in the infinite treasures of love and goodness, is slowly recognizing the Word incarnate. That's when more than ever understand the redemptive work of Salvador, the value of that divine blood, and, consumed by love, feel thirsty. Yes, thirst for the blood of their God, shed for sinful souls. Go after them to save can not. You are blind if it departs from the focus of the Light which is the Word. Then, as with Jesus is not but one person and one will, says he is thirsty for his blood and He can not but feel the same and, throwing his blood poured over souls, saves them.

A soul united and identified with Jesus can do anything. And I think that only through prayer can achieve this. While others say that the prayer ministry and souls are saved, I think it's much more difficult because it requires a great union with the Redeemer: for saving souls is nothing to give to Jesus, and what not has can not give anything. Usually souls into working life harder to come join all [God], because external things and the constant intercourse with the world and are distracted away from Jesus. I also think self-esteem can be mixed when palpated triumphs, Carmelita danger that has not, since it ignores the number of souls saved by prayer and sacrifice. And perhaps from his cell conquest, the pair that the missionaries, millions of infidels who are in the confines of the world.

How beautiful is our vocation, dear sister! We are redeeming of souls in union with our Savior. We are the hosts where Jesus dwells. They live, pray and suffer for the sinful world. Was not this the life of the most perfect of creatures, the Blessed. Virgin? She carried the Word in silence. She always prayed and suffered. Was not this life of prayer and sacrifice that Jesus owned for 30 years? Only three years spent in preaching. Is not this the life of Jesus in the tabernacle? Ah, dear sister, is no doubt that we have chosen the best part, because the brown is only with God. Ask Him to bring you soon. Come then to lose his arms divine. Come to Jesus then find a host rather than submit to His Father for souls. Let nothing make you hesitate. Look to Him awaits full of infinite love and will make you his wife. Want to make you the most intimate union. The will make you divine imbued with you. You will live in the infinite sweetness in Jesus, purity, holiness, in goodness, love of God.

Oh, if you knew the tenderness contained in his adorable heart! It is God, and swim on their criminals, those creatures who only knew a while ago to offend, and still only got unpleasantly.How could I not love him deliriously, why not despise all at the sight of her charms and endless beauty? The has all the beauty of creatures, both physical and intellectual beauty of the heart elevated to an infinite degree. What can you find that is not in Jesus?